After that, I had my first day at the gym and my legs are completely numb. Objective reached:) Since I crashed( not that bad, but quite random) with my bike I stopped biking for the past 2 weeks. And going to the gym now, it's exactly what I needed for this day to be exactly how it should be.
Coming home and finish cooking my amazing new type of rice and I would say that is a success also.
And during this day, everything was completely inspiring with some amazing TED talks that I enjoyed a lot.
So, bottom line, this day was a good day for everything. It was a complete success.
So, then, why do I feel alone at the end of the day? I didn't managed to actually have a real conversation with anyone today, I was lost in my own world, with my mp3 and my computer and my objectives.
If I managed to fulfill everything for today and reached all my objectives, then why do I feel incomplete? Feel that something is missing...So, probably life it's not all about the objectives that I set, not all about work, not all about me, not all about random and meaningless stuff.
It's more then that. The only thing is that usually we realize when it's to late to change something. When we already made mistakes. When we already hurt the people around us. And I realized it also so late, I needed 3 years to get here and understand what it's actually important in your life: friends, family and someone to love and love you back, and of course in your professional life to do something you like and enjoy. Beyond this, the other things that you need are a consequence and come along, the others, will never come.
But who needs them in the end?
When is the moment when I will feel, but above this, feel complete?
1 comment:
I think that admission of feeling incomplete is already a huge step for completion, maybe even completion itself for some cases.
The most important is your awareness of the things you do and emotions you feel.
This day you've dedicated to yourself. Or at least this is what you see on the surface (because any AIESEC work is working for others, right? :) Maybe try to do something nice, even small thing for people you love or people who are near you at the moment, and it might bring that "feeling of completion"? ;)
hugs, dear
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