are you realizing what you get yourself into?

During the past 2 weeks my life changed with some small details in a way that i wasn't expected.

Still, there is one specific thing that I wanted for myself:

- discover myself and learn to trust myself

In the past 2 weeks I actually got some of the things that I wanted to get: challenges to learn more about myself and people around that care about me.

But still feels like this is not good. Because when you get what you want, you actually get more questions and maybe get more hurt if the end result of what you do it's not actually what you were expecting for.

Why do people want so many things but in the end if they get them, they realize that maybe it's much more harder to handle them, than they thought?

Why do I find myself in a place where I knew what i want and when I get it, I don't feel secure anymore about it?

Is it actually fair to be insecure about your wishes after you get them? or maybe it's because you get more insecure about the future and how to develop that wish?

Are we just finding a way to be critical, to complain and to find flaws in everything that happens?

For now I'll take a decision: stop complaining and enjoying the challenges that I get. For sure something good with get out of it:)

my new life:)

Today we got to helsinki. My expectations where a bit low, also for the city because I didn't heard so many good reviews about it. But I was quite impressed, probably because there was also sunny:)

had such a nice evening with my team and with people from Iceland and also Heini. Playing hide and seek and I remembered what it means to be a child. No problems, no crazy thoughts, no obstacles and everything seems so easy.

This blog was always about cheering myself up, and searching for motivation when I felt that it was quite lost. Quite a lot of times sad, but at the end of each post I feel that I know what I should do next and to solve the situation.

Even though I had one of my crazy weeks since I'm in Norway, but I felt so alive and I started to see my life in front of my eyes.

I realized that the past is the past, the memories are the ones that I keep close, but in the same time I move on with my life.

I think I'm quite crazy because I keep having this feelings that I'm not balanced with my life and I really try.

It's nice to enjoy a small acomplishment and I think that this week, even though was a crazy one, I had a better balance that I used to have in this kind of situations before.

My life is different now, with different people and with a different future. Never see myself coming back home,but traveling for the next years and giving myself the balance that I need.

No lies, no fear, no fooling myself or the others and more trust in myself. That should be it.

I know that when I will stop writing on this blog, most probably all this things I achieved.:) Soon:)