16th Octomber. It's getting cold in Bucharest. Hmm, I guess cold weather reminds me of Oslo.
My life is happening in Bucharest now but I'm always with one step ready to go. Strange feeling. Everything happens here but on the other hand I wait for the moment to see myself in the plane and just go somewhere to start something new.
I realize I think too much and I over analyze everything around me. Trying to change that. But trying doesn't mean it goes well:)
Step 1: one week of not worrying about what happens starting with December.
Sometimes we need to scream and let our emotions and feelings go. I would like to scream. But it's freaking quiet and I might seem crazy. Romanians are still not that careless and they might think something is wrong and call the police. That would be funny though:))
So, whenever I feel that my feelings, thoughts, emotions want to say something I don't scream. I listen to music. A song that expresses perfectly what I think or feel. Or I use a quote and put it on my desktop. Most of the time is a song.
Worried today. For us. For me being naive, for me believing in something, for you not being strong enough, for us, not being able to make it and fade away in time.
One year from now, no matter what. How will it be? How will I be? How will you be?
How we will be? We or me and you?
I need you to tell me it will be fine.
Or I would rather not talk about it, than knowing it's not fine.
It's not about people vs feelings this time. It's about you. And me.
Waiting. Sometimes we wait for something we believe it's right to happen. But do we realize that "the right thing to happen" it's not the same "right thing" for others.
We ask ourselves and we create scenarios in our head every day.
Does any of those scenarios work out? For me it never did. Then, why we still do it?
I figured out that I create my scenarios and it never works out as planned. So, I should let it go and just see what happens. Live the moment. Life is so freaking short to over - think everything and to regret and analyze and try to change things.
And life is no fairy-tale so don't be to surprised when there is not all the time a happy ending. It will be but it only depends on us, on me.
I do believe every choice you make is your OWN no matter if you are constrained or not by the environment. Just make your choice.
And FIGHT for what you want and who you want. Don't let it go.
And LOVE. Love your friends, love your family and love that special person in your life. Find that person first though ;) Show them as often as possible.
Yeah, sometimes I need to wake myself up:)
Friday, June 24, 2011
In Oslo rains and I'm crying
Why though? It was a good year..probably this is the reason
Monday, June 20, 2011
Why do people feel sometimes inferior to others even if they don't have any reasons for it?
How can we change it? How do you build up your confidence?
Confidence makes the difference between good and great I guess.. But what is that thin line between confidence and arrogance?
Sunday, June 19, 2011
surprised...
by people, life, choices, results, future
the day when I am surprised in a positive way.
Thankful for this..it shows me that everything will be fine
Looking back to everything I have done before..that one is clear... it's blurry when I look ahead...to find that RIGHT thing, that RIGHT direction, those RIGHT friends, that RIGHT person and that RIGHT place to be.
My wrong choices squeezed in one month and seems that practical there is no time or energy to deal with everything.
Tired- studying for my exams, thesis, not able to find that right internship or right place to be, not clear with myself or my future and struggling for last results to define a successful year in Norway and my challenges back home with my mom.
The question is? How to manage my time and emotions when it's too much to cover and I strive for being perfect in all of them?
Is everyone going through this?How do you manage?
But in the end I try to tell myself everyday:
Yes I can and everything will be fine
But how things can be fine if nothing doesn't fit in any way? You know, when you search for the puzzle pieces you make it work just because you have the right ones to put them together. But what if I don't have the right ones but I still try to put them together?
