Well, there are those fucking crazy moments when you believe that everything is upside down and nothing is going right.
Usually when this happen, I like to go to sleep even though I'm not actually doing that. Why?
Because I always thought that after I sleep all the problems and crazy stuff go away and things come back to normal and it's a new day with new problems;)
The surprise was actually when I discovered that even though I went to sleep, the problems come back. Silly me, I always know that but probably I'm the person that hopes that the end will be exactly how it should be. Disappointing when this is not actually true.
Sometime I consider myself as a naive person. Well, I actually am. Or probably not realistic when it's needed and loose myself in thoughts and people.
Since I'm in Norway I start to analyze myself quite a lot and my experiences in the past year. Quite a surprise when I actually realized that I changed! The thing is that now I'm in the process of analyzing whether it's good or bad. Or just normal.
So things that I should promise myself to do, because I get lost in all the problems and responsibilities and forget about me. Shit, it happens so often.
so: 1 . trust myself..i usually trust myself in things that i have experience in..but not good, this should change. and starting with now, it will change.
2. read - an objective that stays for quite some time in my mind and feel that i don't do any progress at all. well, starting with now it will change.
3. finish what you started. i have this crazy fear that usually if i don't start something on time i'm not able to do it anymore perfect. bullshit. not true. so this fear should go away.
4. let things come naturally - force it when it's not working it's not a good strategy to get what you wish. if you try, and you try and you try and still things don't work, let them go.
5. get to know new people and keep in contact with dear friends. that's simple. talk with new people and don't forget about your friends that are in this big world.
6. be curios.
kind of a lot...6 things on the list is hard to focus on because there are too many.
but, in the end this is something that for sure will make me better tomorrow than today.
so, this time I'll not go to sleep but I'll see things from outside of the circle.
Raluca
1 comment:
read your post and had some random thoughts regarding your bullet points:
1. Go beyond your trust. do smth that scares you. it will develop your confidence even more
2. You can read on your way to the office and back; go to the park when it's a nice day; go to a cafe when it' not. just use any free time you have.
3. you still can do it. some people work better when almost don't have time. but you can just burn out if you only do crises management. so maybe ask somebody to be a time bitch ?
4. to let things go - is a key to be in peace with yourself. of coz, certain things require control (like a project or smth). but still: whatever happens is the right thing to happen
5. networking is important. but till some point. then you'll realise that you know too many of people and the relationship is too much superficial. so keep your closest old and new friends and value them.
6. yes, you're curios. please, remain the same!
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