What is more painful: to let go of someone or to keep holding on?
What keeps things together? What keeps us together?

My talent is to get involved in things that don't have future and might not make me happy on long term. Or with people..

Why are we complicated? or why do we complicate things if they are simple?

Starting point

The start of something new doesn't mean you have everything defined.
Doesn't mean you already know what to do or where you will go from now on.

But what it means?
It means it's a chance. A chance for capturing another moment in your life, take as much as you can from it and go further.
Don't look back, don't underestimate or overestimate yourself.
Be at your best and just go with the flow 80% and the last of 20% think a bit about the future and you.
Speed up. Don't loose time.

This is a motivation point when you realize that you are innocent in everything you do. And you just simply think that a start for something new means that things change 180º. It doesn't. It just changes the environment. The world is still the same, we are the same.

Just be at your best with your best version of yourself! And then go forward!

Today it's different!
R

A life so changed...

And one more time the thing I believe the most came true again:

- opportunities come and go but the ones that are for you are kept aside. You just need to look around and keep your eyes open.

- follow what you want and don't hold back. It will come as long as you fight for it.

The things that happen are the right ones to happen.

Next page...

Food for thought

2 things i realized in the past 2 days:

1. No matter how much we are searching for opinions from others regarding our decisions and insecurities it will never be the answer we wanted. Where is the fine line between asking for opinions and feedback and going in one direction based on someones opinions? When is the moment you say stop and just take your own decision?

2. People change. I change. What makes the difference is if we try to get to know them once in a while. They might have changed exactly those things we were judging them for.

9th of November.

Tuesday.

01:02 a.m.

Tired.

Norah Jones - Not too late - perfect song.

Preparing a training for new members of AIESEC Bucharest.

"Don’t wish it were easier, wish you were better. Don’t wish for fewer problems, wish for more skills. Don’t wish for less challenges, wish for more wisdom.” Earl Shoaf - perfect quote.

Still not clear. Undecided.

Belief: The best thing comes when you least expect it.

1st comment: if you don't see it or hold on to it, you loose it.

2nd comment( question): where is my next least expected moment?

Future, please knock on my door!

16th Octomber. It's getting cold in Bucharest. Hmm, I guess cold weather reminds me of Oslo.

My life is happening in Bucharest now but I'm always with one step ready to go. Strange feeling. Everything happens here but on the other hand I wait for the moment to see myself in the plane and just go somewhere to start something new.

I realize I think too much and I over analyze everything around me. Trying to change that. But trying doesn't mean it goes well:)

Step 1: one week of not worrying about what happens starting with December.

Until then:

when you want to scream, scream

Take a big bag. A resistant one.

Take a deep breath.

Put the bag in front of your face and scream.

Sometimes we need to scream and let our emotions and feelings go. I would like to scream. But it's freaking quiet and I might seem crazy. Romanians are still not that careless and they might think something is wrong and call the police. That would be funny though:))

So, whenever I feel that my feelings, thoughts, emotions want to say something I don't scream. I listen to music. A song that expresses perfectly what I think or feel. Or I use a quote and put it on my desktop. Most of the time is a song.

Worried today. For us. For me being naive, for me believing in something, for you not being strong enough, for us, not being able to make it and fade away in time.

One year from now, no matter what. How will it be? How will I be? How will you be?

How we will be? We or me and you?

I need you to tell me it will be fine.

Or I would rather not talk about it, than knowing it's not fine.

It's not about people vs feelings this time. It's about you. And me.