1. No matter how much we are searching for opinions from others regarding our decisions and insecurities it will never be the answer we wanted. Where is the fine line between asking for opinions and feedback and going in one direction based on someones opinions? When is the moment you say stop and just take your own decision?
2. People change. I change. What makes the difference is if we try to get to know them once in a while. They might have changed exactly those things we were judging them for.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
9th of November.
Tuesday.
01:02 a.m.
Tired.
Norah Jones - Not too late - perfect song.
Preparing a training for new members of AIESEC Bucharest.
"Don’t wish it were easier, wish you were better. Don’t wish for fewer problems, wish for more skills. Don’t wish for less challenges, wish for more wisdom.” Earl Shoaf - perfect quote.
Still not clear. Undecided.
Belief: The best thing comes when you least expect it.
1st comment: if you don't see it or hold on to it, you loose it.
2nd comment( question): where is my next least expected moment?
16th Octomber. It's getting cold in Bucharest. Hmm, I guess cold weather reminds me of Oslo.
My life is happening in Bucharest now but I'm always with one step ready to go. Strange feeling. Everything happens here but on the other hand I wait for the moment to see myself in the plane and just go somewhere to start something new.
I realize I think too much and I over analyze everything around me. Trying to change that. But trying doesn't mean it goes well:)
Step 1: one week of not worrying about what happens starting with December.
Sometimes we need to scream and let our emotions and feelings go. I would like to scream. But it's freaking quiet and I might seem crazy. Romanians are still not that careless and they might think something is wrong and call the police. That would be funny though:))
So, whenever I feel that my feelings, thoughts, emotions want to say something I don't scream. I listen to music. A song that expresses perfectly what I think or feel. Or I use a quote and put it on my desktop. Most of the time is a song.
Worried today. For us. For me being naive, for me believing in something, for you not being strong enough, for us, not being able to make it and fade away in time.
One year from now, no matter what. How will it be? How will I be? How will you be?
How we will be? We or me and you?
I need you to tell me it will be fine.
Or I would rather not talk about it, than knowing it's not fine.
It's not about people vs feelings this time. It's about you. And me.
Waiting. Sometimes we wait for something we believe it's right to happen. But do we realize that "the right thing to happen" it's not the same "right thing" for others.
We ask ourselves and we create scenarios in our head every day.
Does any of those scenarios work out? For me it never did. Then, why we still do it?
I figured out that I create my scenarios and it never works out as planned. So, I should let it go and just see what happens. Live the moment. Life is so freaking short to over - think everything and to regret and analyze and try to change things.
And life is no fairy-tale so don't be to surprised when there is not all the time a happy ending. It will be but it only depends on us, on me.
I do believe every choice you make is your OWN no matter if you are constrained or not by the environment. Just make your choice.
And FIGHT for what you want and who you want. Don't let it go.
And LOVE. Love your friends, love your family and love that special person in your life. Find that person first though ;) Show them as often as possible.
Yeah, sometimes I need to wake myself up:)
Friday, June 24, 2011
In Oslo rains and I'm crying
Why though? It was a good year..probably this is the reason
