For sure this is the year that will change my entire life. It's the year when I decided I will take a different path of my life, in another place in the world with other people. Now I realize that I leave so many things behind: friends, experiences, places and memories.
And sometimes I actually ask myself if I should do it. Just take the opportunity that comes and see what happens.
But sometimes I have doubts. I feel alone. I feel that my close friends are not next to me. That I need to reinvent myself and rediscover myself with every new direction I choose. I feel lost...
In the end, everything that happens comes down to what? To the people, the family - current and future, to the adventures and discoveries that I make, to what ?
Now I feel that actually, at the end of the day, I don't have that person that can be unconditionally there. So, in the end, everything that I search for is to have close people and friends that I can count on what ever happens?
If I want this, then why I want to go and explore the world, discover, learn, do everything but not in one place, not with the same people?
So, now, it is a fight between stability and adventure. What should be? What is the answer?
Sincerely, I don't know. Because if I have one, I feel that I need the other. So....??
The year for change. What will it be?
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